Recovery

You don't get this far
without having to recover from something
nobody is spared
suffering comes to all

The key is
can you forgive over and over
can you love when it isn't perfect
when you're hurt
can you love your enemies
or the enemy in the person
you choose to love

That's the anvil
where the hammer of cosmic judgement falls
can you love without a thought of yourself
can you sustain it like sunlight
while the light burns through your cloak
and reveals all of your sicknesses
all the logs lodged in your eyes

Or do you retreat back
to the simplicity of self
where the mirror is ever clouded
and love comes with ifs and whens
cursed with the impermanence
of the fallen nature
of all people.

Can you give without conditions
or do you wait
for eternity like you deserve it
like it doesn't cost you everything.