Monday, May 14, 2018

The Governor

I just voted on my mail in ballot this week. We Californians are voting for our next Governor in the primary. The top two vote getters, regardless of party, will go on to battle in the General election. There will likely be two Democrats in the General election, and if that's the case Gavin Newsom will likely be the next Governor.

Gavin Newsom is the current Lt. Governor of the State and before that was the mayor of San Francisco from 2004-2011, the years that San Francisco lost its soul. Not that that was his fault, but he was definitely on the team that ruined the City. 

A little over ten years ago, while mayor of SF, Newsom had an affair with his campaign manager's wife. His campaign manager at the time has been described as being his best friend. Soon after, Newsom started dating a 19-year-old model, when he was 38. Here he is talking about that time of his life. 

Gavin Newsom has long called himself an "entrepreneur" but has been high on public money since 2004 and has mostly had one nepotistic relationship with a super wealthy San Franciscan patron, who I'm guessing gets political favors for being Gavin's real estate bank. Gavin Newsom is a schmarmy dirtbag, corrupt to the bone, operating in a State that seems to have a permanent Democratic majority, to our detriment. When you open your Voter's Guide, you'll see that he's one of the only candidates that hasn't provided a candidate's statement because he didn't agree to California's voluntary spending cap on gubernatorial races. He wanted to spend all he could. You know the higher ups in the DNC that "knew" Hillary Clinton would be the best person for the job and could easily beat Donald Trump, the DNC people that cut Bernie Sanders off at the knees? That's Gavin's circle. He runs with the super wealthy, does whatever he wants and panders to the poor by supporting policy that doles out welfare by the bucket load. He's one of the most privileged people in California politics, and for some reason just rises on up without a challenge. Maybe this is the year he gets derailed though, I think if a real opponent can make it to General, he could lose.  

There are two main reasons I won't vote for Gavin Newsom. The first reason is because I'm convinced he's a corrupt dirtbag. The 2nd reason is because the ongoing, 40+ year Democratic majority in California has been an impediment to prosperity and freedom in the State of California. The State is becoming a socialist experiment, and it isn't working. 

Consider these facts of life in California, a State where the Democratic Party has had unbroken legislative control for over 40 years:

California has the highest poverty rate in the nation. Higher than Mississippi, Alabama, West Virginia and every other State in the Union. One out of five Californians are poor, and that number is arrived at while including non-cash government assistance AS INCOME. So the real number, if based on actual earnings, would be higher than 1 out of 5.

At Least 30% of Households all over California can't afford rent. In some areas that number rises to 60%

California has 12% of US Population - 21% of US Homeless Population - 34% of US Welfare Recipients. The Social services throw a lot of money around, and we stopped building houses for some reason. 

California has one of the most expensive prison systems in the world. 34 prisons, 30,000 employees, $11billion annual budget, $70,000 per inmate per year.  

3 Million Undocumented Immigrants. That's a lot and it isn't cheap. $25 billion is spent on K-12 education, medical services, public assistance, courts and other government services for non-citizens. Many undocumented immigrants are of course working and contributing to the tax pool by buying things. The estimate is 3.5 billion collected, but it would be more if those jobs were filled legally. And culturally more is brought to America's table when immigrants are allowed to and proud to assimilate. California's response to this soft border issue, is to do nothing, let people live in the shadows, get abused by employers, and issue drivers licences. I don't think that helps anybody.

Everybody gets a pension. We have tons and tons of government employees and huge pension plans for most of them. According to reporting from The Nation, the conservative estimate for unfunded promises to retiring government workers in California is $333 billion. It could be as high as over $1 trillion. No Democrat is saying anything about Pension reform because they get crazy money from the unions. But that amount of money means more taxes later, and it makes things like public education and social services really hard to fund later. Forget about single payer State healthcare. That's snake oil with $1 trillion of red ink in pension promises.

Laws for everything. In California there is a law for everything. I can attest to the byzantine labyrinth of food laws and building laws from small businesses I've owned. And now it looks like every new house built, starting in 2020, will be required to have a solar system. That's insane. There's a housing crisis where we should be building, at a minimum, of 100,000 new homes every year but we can only barely manage 80,000, and so housing prices and construction costs are out of reach for many working people, and by 2020 you can add another $30,000 to your already senseless mortgage to pay for the mandated solar array. And because almost all government interventions in the market create the opposite desired effect, I can't wait to hear how that initiative will somehow lead to an increase in energy use.

Assault Weapons Ban. Gavinites basically did that. We have an assault weapons ban in California. Which means almost nothing substantive. Our rifles can't have too many features on them like telescopic scopes and pistol grips and detachable magazines. You can have some features just not all at once. The ballistics and caliber of a bullet is never mentioned. So you can't have an AR-15 unless you take a couple of the tactical things off which is what people do, but you can go ahead and go to town on that 30-06 rifle, the same round that was carried by every infantryman in the M-1 rifle in WW2. It's a big nasty bullet. Was very much so a weapon of war. Anyone mentioning the 30-06? No. Just commonsense gun reforms to totally end gun violence. Good luck with that! Our State is part of the problem in missing the actual things in our culture that makes people insane enough to shoot up class rooms (spoiler alert it's the goddamn meds, no mental health department and fatherlessness and really bad police work by cops that get bloated pension promises).

Eventually the politicians will kill the Sacramento River. So up here in the Northstate we are a conservative area. The democrats in Sac don't get their votes or their treasure from us. Monied interests in the LA area and Bay Area mostly dictate our State politics. Jerry Brown wanted to build tunnels to suck water in unfathomable quantities to send South. I'm obviously not a hydrologist, but I've had friends of mine who are involved in water conservation tell me that if those things he wants get built and go online, the Sacramento River in our neck of the woods would be closer to a creek at certain times of the year. Whether that's true or not, I think it's a bad idea to pump tons of water to irrigate a desert, no matter what scale you're talking about. The point is, with a Democrat as governor, the entire Northstate is not represented. Because the Democrat doesn't have to listen to anything we say. A Republican would have to.

Truly High Taxes. Highest income tax in the nation. 12 cents per gallon additional gas tax. High sales tax with super aggressive Board of Equalization. Really high vehicle registration rates. All to fund some of the most bloated and inefficient government agencies anywhere in the country. Great.

John Cox should be the next governor because he will use a big and needed veto pen.


     

Wednesday, May 9, 2018

Descent

It starts as a spring
trickling out of polished granite
at the top of a mountain
you can come to it parched
put your lips on it
you can drink it in gulps
lick it off the rock
as thirsty as you are
it never stops coming
it fills you
after the arduous climb

By the time
it reaches the valley
here where we farm food
and work jobs
raise the children and drive cars
where we stare at our smart phones
where our backs get sweaty
from the worn out old couch
and the stale air
it is the widest river
swift and polluted
undrinkable
and you can't cross it
without a boat
none of us can seem
to push off the dock.

Repentance Soundtrack

https://youtu.be/y7iXu2yO7Lc

Tuesday, May 8, 2018

Artwork

This painting
made of sorted and ground rocks
stardust and the liquor of walnuts
thick pigment thinned
with turpentine and tears
is one of the most beautiful things
I have ever made
and I can finally look at it again
to stroke it bit by bit
love it again
so I can finish it
to give away
it carries everything
I should have given away
in the first place
it beams light
like a garden with a labyrinth
I'm not entirely sure what it means
it means holiness is real
buried somewhere inside
and love is eternal
lost somewhere in the sky
at the very least.

Modern Families

There were long days and nights alone
a guy brought me fishing once
another one brought me crystal hunting
still another one let me try as hard as I could to fight him when I was twelve

One man had daughters who were about to move out
he was sick of them and had always wanted a son
he was sent to talk to me when at thirteen
I tried my hand at sketching porn in my sketchbook
he came in like a hero and pierced my shame
to tell me it wasn't a big deal
just that my mom thought it was
that was the extent of the talk
that all men kind of want to see women
touch each other
and that some day soon I would get to have women
and it would be amazing
just focus on being careful
don't have sex for a long time
but also focus on getting one when it's time
don't wait too long
he did this duty even though my mom had rejected him already

We never lived together
but that seemed pretty great to me
He took me rock climbing a lot and
beamed with pride when I got to the top
He went to AA and NA
maybe my mom left him because he was sober all the time
maybe she left him because he thought
all that New Age shit was stupid
he drove an old truck and was an electrician
he lived on the ridge
and was a fucking man

After that the men decreased in quality
and I let go of my hope
that a man who gave a shit enough to deal with us
to show up to my karate tournaments or plays
or talk to me about porn
would be the same kind of man my mom would keep
By the time Darrel showed up
I was eating acid on the weekends
and just thrilled that somebody had distracted my mom for a minute
so I could do whatever I wanted
my friends called him Skirt D
because he wore a sarong and ate mushrooms
and had spent a lot of time being
a predator of women

I've read a lot about single motherhood since
the statistics of it, the emotional castle
the one that's built that keeps chasing good men away
and imprisons pubescent boys in their own malformed patriarchy
how being fatherless is more risky
than growing up in the Southside of Chicago
I hate men who leave their children or families
I hate that any women would take that man in
they betray themselves
they betray all mothers
those men should have their penises removed
I hate how the importance of men
is largely ignored, especially on the coasts
the fiction that we aren't totally essential
I hate that men adopt that thinking
mostly to have sex with liberal women
it's a belief that's only possible if you haven't raised a child
all the poisonous myths of modernity
that moms can do it all
that suffering can be avoided
that men should be able to think like women
that love affairs don't penetrate our souls
that a soul is just an idea
that men are destructive and women are creative
that men have laid waste to the world
that God is not wrathful
that the revelation of God has been mistranslated
that true feminist men can even exist without God's brackets
that baptism is just a ritual men made up
and that the destruction of the family
can be mitigated
by anything less
than a
big
strong
masculine
clumsy
sinful
man
who loves
his woman.

Unanswered

Is it too late
to believe in miracles
with all the reason
poisoning the well
like nuclear waste
odorless and fatal

Are you too good
at saying goodbye
after giving all the things
you know how to give

Dozens of men
are left in these woods
bleeding
like charging a hill
in a battle
that can't be won
in a war that started
before we showed up
with our dreams
of getting home
of painting your picket fence
white

Sunday, May 6, 2018

Starvation

I couldn't look my priest in the eye
When I kneeled at the altar rail
I couldn't sing Hymn 400
Because it exalts God so well
It is too beautiful for me right now
I had a cross in my throat
Because I am a wretch who is saved

The sanctuary in Spring
is the most beautiful building in town
with all the wood beams and wall of windows
and hand carvings
and new farm for people without food
Many people said hello
there's a new Deaconess with a German accent
the stations of the cross
have collected no dust
the holy water is clear
in the granite chalices

I have made many mistakes
I have rebelled, over and over
taken many things for granted
used others, been used
been led to anger
been seduced, tripped, hated and confused
My path has had many narrow bridges
and cloaked sinkholes
I have encountered vipers and demons
I've been lost in the desert
frantic for the North star
desperate for my home

I'm so thankful
that somewhere along the way
I learned how to kneel
because in times like these
I can only return to my knees
to the water and the wine
and in the end of my flight
all manner of spells
even the ones I cast on myself
are broken
nothing is stronger 
than the sacrifice
the body
the Word
the resurrection

God knits
and knits
and breaks
and burns
and cleanses
with fire and blood
every single time
I crawl
back Home.